May 25, 2021
Wow! It’s been two years since walking down the aisle to meet and marry a stranger I would call my husband. The marriage was only for two months but, it was a very insightful two months that changed my life forever. When I look back on the experience I tend to think, ‘what the heck was I thinking’. In actuality, I was thinking I would fall in love and find someone to spend the rest of my life with. I would finally say ‘I Love You’ to an individual whom I actually loved, and this person would love me back with passion, fulfillment and sincerity. As we all know, I did not get that outcome. Many of you have asked me, am I mad, sad, bitter. The answer is “no”. I am just blessed to have been apart of something that changed me for the better and allowed me to look at myself and others in a different and very intentional light.
How have I changed? Here is one of plenty, this time two years ago I would easily trust people. I learned as a child to trust people first, give them benefit of the doubt then take away that trust as soon as they showed me they weren’t worthy…now it’s the opposite. An individual must now gain my trust first, then maybe I can grow into fully trusting you them…maybe. A lot of us are like that, trusting people is hard to do. Especially when you naïvely trusted someone who deceived, lied, or manipulated you. I know right, talk about being guarded “call the Queens Guards I need a few”. Maybe it is a mistake I’ll learn to grow out of or maybe it’s something that is now ingrained in my fiber forever. I’ve changed much more than that which you will read more about later but its all thanks to an insightful two months.
The real reason for this post is what have I learned about myself?? I’d ask what have you learned about me BUT to be honest whether its right or wrong it’s your own interpretation of a person you saw only 15-20min each week for a few months. But do you REALLY know me? Or you know about the story line of a virgin girl you saw on TV? Well, this blog is all about that and for you all to learn more about my new insights. No this is not just talking about Married at First Sight, there is a lot more to me than that. Fashion, Beauty, Travel, and Life, straight from the source, no edits, no makeup, just Iris.